Lana, an excellent thinker, an excellent person, feels the need to put her truth out there: being homeschooled was NOT a good socialization situation for her. She feels outside of groups, unable to relate to "normal" kids, and longs to be "normal". And, furthermore, she has readers who absolutely shared similar experiences.
I can honestly say that my daughter, The Doctor, Liz, goes through periods such as this. The Doctor is a terrifically emotive person. She is so in tune to herself and others and she notices so much and she questions so many things. She doesn't get groups of kids from school.
The Doctor decided to go to school a time or two as a result of this feeling. She wanted to know what "normal" kids do. She wanted to become a part of that giggly group of girls at the mall, walking along, texting on their phones, and telling secrets. She wanted to know what those normal kids had that she felt that she didn't have.
She had supremely high hopes. But what she found was far different than what she expected. Kids weren't nice. Kids were rude to their teachers and to each other. Kids were cruel to one another very openly. Kids weren't open to meeting anyone new. She definitely wasn't befriended.
Her overall experience was fine, she wasn't offended at not having been befriended. Instead, after having been "inside", she felt informed. She felt grateful to not being a part of these kids who were all worshiping fad clothing, Justin Bieber, and the popular kids. She felt gratitude and deeply proud of her homeschool friends who are all very unique, very well-spoken, and very open with who they are. She actually felt sorry for the kids who had their uniqueness squashed, teased, tormented. She saw, with new eyes, that those girls in the mall are a small piece of a very large puzzle and those girls don't represent most of the kids, only the most visible part.
The Amazing Doctor,
I think you are amazing.
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